I’m Afraid To Shine Because Of Camel toe

When I was in middle school I was overweight and I loved show choir.

I was NOT very popular or glamorous.

It was a “Glee like”, slushie in the face, kind of experience.

Truly, there were girls in my grade who went out of their way to make fun of me, publicly.

In the 7th Grade I got the lead solo over a girl one year older than me, who happened to be on the yearbook panel.  I was nervous because I really wanted to be her friend, she was soo pretty and popular.

I really longed to be liked by her.

As I’ve been exploring healing through archetypes and goddess, The Great Mother has shown me our gift as feminine women to truly adore one another.  Looking back on this memory I see the softness in my heart around just really loving this girl I admired.

Stealing the solo from her did not seem like a sure fire way to get into the friendship zone but talent was my only source of confidence in middle school.  When a lack of fashion sense and being overweight knocked me out of “ the cool girl circle” I relied on it to find a way to feel worthy and belong.

I never told her how much I adored her.

I hesitantly accepted the solo and she painfully plotted her revenge.

Later that year when our yearbooks came out I eagerly flipped through all the pages with my girlfriends.  We were playing a game of counting how many pictures we were in this year.  Did you ever do that?

To my surprise there was a full page feature of JUST me.  It pointed out a beautifully displayed case of MASSIVE camel toe.

Her revenge was born.

It really hurt.

So, for a Loooooooong time I didn’t trust my own talents or women in the circles around me.  I had this terrible fear that if I shined in anyway, I would hurt someone else and they would turn on me.

Two Keys To Come Out Of Hiding And Start Shining

Every year I set a theme for the year.  The idea is to direct my focus and concentrate all my feminine power, expanding and healing in one area.  I allow a full year to dance in this specific space of transformation.

Last year my theme was community and this year it’s generosity.

Combined, these two themes have taught me a smack down lesson in sisterhood.  These are the two keys to working through your fear of being seen and taking the spotlight with your mission and your message.

1. Community (Sisterhood)

Exploring community taught me the importance of practicing sisterhood as an art, as a non negotiable and as a resource for ancient wisdom.

This was the missing piece in my middle school “glee days”.

When we are held in a safe space by the power of intention and with devotion (despite challenge) to an open heart in sisterhood, we remember there is room to shine.

Being a part of a community offers us a safety net.

Creating importance and consistency around making space for connection with other women (on a soul level) is what reminds us we are already seen and safe.

In this level of connection you discover that most of what you feel, I feel too, or I’ve been there.  You step out of your comfort zone with your thoughts and ideas and you recognize first hand that your voice is needed.

Your vulnerability and openness helps others to heal from the simple pains that are present in us all.  Fear of not being good enough and worthiness of love.

One way I practice this is by investing in a mastermind with like minded women and prioritizing weekly sister circle calls with 4 other women.  We meet to ask for support and hold that space for each other.

What would it feel like to have a sister circle of your own to turn to each week?

2. Generosity

Generosity brought me back into adoration for the women I admire, trusting and allowing my love for others to be shared and voiced.

Your loving thoughts and adoration for others could be the very words that save their life, help them overcome a deep fear or affirm their greatest joy.  Generosity with your support, words of affirmation, and ideas, allow others to see into your heart and relinquish judgements they may have been holding of you.

One way I practice generosity is always sharing when I feel adoration toward someone and saying it out loud or in a quick note.

I wish I would have done that with that girl back in 7th grade!

I could have saved myself from that embarrassing camel toe memory.

Hiding Hurts

Peak-a-boo I see you.

I invite you to come out of hiding sister.

Community and generosity are two practices you can invite to your life that will easily shift your fear of shining, to a joy for sharing and being seen.

Community and generosity teaches us on an embodied level that all we really want is to connect with one another, support each other in being and feeling our best and we’re searching for that opportunity everywhere.

When you know this in your heart you never fear taking the stage.

Please come out before you feel perfect.  Create a new definition of love.

This level of knowledge creates certainty on a soul level that destroys anything your monkey brain may try to insert into your thoughts.

Sneak Peak Into Sisterhood Training

When it comes to creating sisterhood, I have learned from the sovereign of a new and beautiful kingdom of oneness, Nisha. Nisha Moodley, knows what it takes to be a real, true, authentic giver and receiver within a sisterhood.

And, when she shared THIS ADVICE in her Training Video for my Life Coach Training Program (you all fondly know as Mentor Masterclass), I couldn’t resist giving you a sneak peak!

In this week’s Wake Up Wednesday with Jey on the MM blog, the amazing, celebrity mentor, Nisha Moodley answers the question:

What should ALL women know about sisterhood?

This training is usually only available to coaches in training in Mentor Masterclass or the up and coming thought leaders I support with their coaching businesses in The Sisterhoood Mastermind.

I just couldn’t help but share a sneak peek with you because you really must know about this.

3 Easy Actions For You To Take Right Now:

1.  Comment below: When do you have a tendency to hide from sisterhood? What causes you to go into hiding?

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3.  Watch the video sneak peak from Nisha on the Mentor Masterclass blog by clicking here NOW!

Always on purpose,

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